The courage you have shown by doing what you did, by recognizing you needed help, and by going and asking to get the help, you should give yourself a pat on the back. Thank you for sharing your personal events. Stigma remains a problem that needs to be erased in this world.
But I have nothing but admiration for what you managed to do, and I applaud you for it. I hope you are much better in yourself? Please do keep in touch with me.